March 8, 2010

Breathing In

February is finally over. The shortest month of the year was too busy, packed with deadlines and long days that weren’t quite long enough. Or maybe it was that my energy was running short. In the middle of working extra days and hours I decided to take a short course at the local college and work on my taxes at the same time. Whew.

March is starting at a slower pace and I’m letting myself ease into more gentle projects around the house. Of course, after the craziness of the past six weeks there’s a lot of housework that needs catching up, but no one ever died from needing to dust the baseboards, so I’m not pushing too hard on those things. No, instead, I’m taking time to stare out the windows at trees whipping in the wind and big, fat raindrops splashing on pavement.

That’s what’s calling to me right now, the small moments that are coaxing me back to the present, making me feel the wonder of approaching spring. The air is clean and I’m inhaling huge gulps of it every day.

This time last year I was in over my head with caregiving. This year I’m done with that. There was terrible loss mixed in with the hectic joy of planning my wedding. My emotions swung from fear and stress to hopeful happiness. Today, right now, I’m on a more even keel. It’s a good feeling.

Maybe I’ll even get back to this page more often. I’m not going to make a promise or set a goal; instead I’ll let myself string some words together and see where it leads me.


Amber said...

Wait. No one dies from dusty floors?! Shit. ;)

Rest in the moment. Drink it.


Becca said...

I'm always glad to see you around when the fancy strikes you :)

Wishing you many moments of clarity and peace.

Star said...

I'm jealous of your beautiful blooming trees!

Hoping you'll keep stringing words together... :)

Christine said...

I think you said everything perfectly! You got it out and I for one, understand.

You should post more often. I like what you have to say.

Anonymous said...

I remember last year when you were overwhelmed with caregiving and planning the wedding. What a difference a year makes. I'm so happy that things are settling down a bit. I look forward to seeing you here more often, but only if it suits your fancy.

Beautiful photo.